I will not bow down. I will say it again... I will not bow down!
Why is it often difficult to see the enemy’s attempts to bring me down? How easily I can get caught in a place of value seeking. He knows that I want to have a significance on this earth. Why is it so easy to get swept into that place of allowing man to give me or take value from me?
The question was asked; “what is it that satan uses to try and get you to bow down? I know the answer, it comes to me immediately. I want to make a difference, to have a value in what I offer. I want to have something significant to bring the world. I want to make Papa God proud.
There’s this place inside me that wants to be seen and delighted in. It’s a natural desire. The problem is it often gets twisted and somehow begins to incorporate my value as seen through the eyes of the world, instead of the eyes of Papa.
I love to tell His truths. When He invited me to teach “Captivating” at my old church, the desire was birthed into life. I couldn’t hold it back. I loved teaching, speaking and talking about His heart. Standing up front with a microphone attached, telling the truth of HIs heart, stirred something deep inside me. With the awakened desire came an ache all it’s own.
As is often the case, desire is awakened to then be taken into hibernation. The hibernation brings with it a time of dormancy. Living with the birthed desire has had it’s moments of pain and heartache. It’s in those moments that the enemy comes trying to convince me to bow down.
Another desire awakened when I started to write again. I love it, yet it can be painful sometimes. Last year I lost 30 devotionals when my hard drive crashed. Two weeks ago my laptop was damaged and once again, taking with it more writing. The taunting I hear tries to convince me that I am wasting my time. It’s not whispers this time, but shouts...”give it all up”...”what you are doing is worthless.”
I will not bow down! I will not allow my value to be challenged by the one who comes to steal, kill and destroy. I choose to combat the lies with the truth. I am significant because I am His created one. That is what gives me value, not a ministry, title, teaching, or even evidence of influencing someone’s life. I am significant because I am His. It has nothing to do with what I do.
I am loved, seen, and delighted in. I have incredible value to Him and if I never did another thing, but live loved THAT would fulfill my destiny. THAT is why I am here. It’s so easy to miss the truth. It’s so easy to think that what I do here on this earth is what really counts.
The reality is, my Papa loves me just because I am His Jewel. If I live in that, I fulfill what I was created for. I am loved by the Creator of the universe. That is what makes a difference on this earth. THAT is my reality. Therefore, I will not bow down!
What about you? What is it that the enemy uses to try to get you to bow down?
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