My friend Tiffany asked me if I had ever posted for "Thankful Thursdays". I said, "No". She said, "why not"? I didn't know why not. I didn't have an answer. So here I am.
Last night as our small group met I couldn't help but be thankful for so many things. We are reading a great book together; "He Loves Me" by Wayne Jacobsen. In the chapter we were on last night, the first two pages describe a woman who is the busiest woman in the church. It's out of her desire to be loved that she works so hard. She's not comfortable in her own skin so she works to gain approval, value and love. That was ME.
As we talked about the chapter I realized how much things had changed. My heart overflowed with gratefulness that Papa God had come after me to love me away from my work. He had relentlessly pursued me. He loved me so intimately that He refused to leave me striving in my own ability to gain love. So He came after me.
It didn't come easy. There was much strain and struggle to live free. After all those things were what had given me value. There were years of performance and striving attached to me. To let them go, at times, felt like having an appendage amputated. But in His mercy and grace, He gently cut them off, one by one. And now I am free. Free to bask in His finished work. Free to realize that I am crucified and no longer live. He lives in me.
I am resting, now and it is the most satisfying place that I have ever known. It is truly the sweetest freedom my heart has ever experienced.
He loves me so deeply, so intimately, so personally without my doing a thing. Amazing.
Thank you Papa God for setting my heart free.
Thank you for your relentless pursuit to love me.
Thank you for your perfect love that perfects my imperfections.
Thank you for seeing me as I am and loving me until I see it.
Thank you that He who the Son sets free is free indeed.
Thank you for setting my marriage free.
Thank you for the beauty that surrounds me.
YOU are awesome!
"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release for the prisoners." Isaiah 61:1