The personality profile test the church used was supposed to help me understand myself. Everyone seemed to buy into it. I was told it was helpful in knowing how to work in relationships in ministry together. I bought into it too. I wanted to know who I was. I wanted to understand the lingo everyone was using. Little did I know that it would end up being something used to shut me down.
I attended the seminars where the pastor presented the information. I received my label. “D”, Direct, Decisive, High Ego Strength, Problem Solver, Risk Taker, Self Starter. As he described the weaknesses of my new-found diagnosis I felt the shame wash over me. Really, is this who I am? It didn’t look good for a southern woman in the church. I didn’t want to be her. I wanted to be someone else. I didn’t want to anyone to know.
I will never forget the Sunday I was asked by one woman in particular about my profile. As I spoke I heard the groan escape her lips, confirming what I had come to believe. No one wants to have a personality like mine.
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2 comments:
Hey, Julie love. :)
I have gotten several comments at my new place for people searching for the Hebrew Names of God cross stitch you mentioned on some of my original posts for the Hebrew Names of God study I did a few years ago. I directed them to your blog to get in touch with you about it. I hope you don't mind. :)
Blessings,
M
P.S. I don't know if you knew I moved my blog to wordpress. the new URL is www.michellebentham.org. I'm thinking on starting a study on the Names of Jesus. I was going to do that in 2009 but my life sort of fell apart and then, gasp, I got a job and my time got all tied up in that for the last two years. How are you by the way. :)
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