As He walked across the stage to sit down the picture painted a thousand words in my mind. Scott McEntyre, a blind contestant on American Idol, had to be guided through every step. He had no choice. It was his life.
What if we were like Scott? What if we were that dependent? Would life look different? If you could not see one step in front of you, would you wait on someone to guide you or would you feel your way on your own?
Jesus waited for His every step from the One who saw the big picture. He knew He was not to lean on His own understanding.
It’s a lost art in this day and age. We are taught to figure things out, get it right, take care of ourselves. Self-reliance is affirmed in the world around us. Do we really have any clue what it means to be totally dependent on anyone?
My daughter is getting married. The truth is we don’t have enough money to cover all the expenses. We know God will provide. We've already seen Him cover things in unexpected ways. She’s happy to have what He has for her, but sometimes we both feel the pressure to figure it all out.
She came to talk about the wedding cake. It’s easy for her to bring the costs to her dad and I, after all we look like the ones who are supposed to have answers. I could feel the tension mounting inside me to come up with a way to cover the expense, when Jesus spoke to me.
“Jewel, tell her to come to me with each detail of this wedding, first.” “Tell her I have a cake picked out for her, one I will provide for.” “Tell her to ask me to let her fall in love with the one I’ve chosen for her.” “Tell her to give it to me to cover.” “She’s looking to you and David.” “You are not her resource, I am.” “Teach her to depend on Me.” "Oh and by the way, you need to remember too."
Jesus knows the path of trust. He was not self-reliant He didn’t have to come up with the answers. He knew God had the answers to life around Him. He knew the Father had His needs figured out and would cover them. He didn't fret or struggle to make it all happen. He waited to be covered. He spoke what the Father told Him to speak. He went where the Father told Him to go. He said what the Father told Him to say. Dependence was a way of life for Him.
Why do I not think life should be the same for me?
He speaks to me again. “Do not lean on your own understanding, Jewel.” “In all your ways acknowledge Me. “Look to Me in all things, big and small. I will direct your path. I never meant for you to lean on yourself. I made you lean on Me." "I've got your covered."
He knows the path. He knows the answers. He has it all cared for. Whose understanding will I lean on? Mine or His? One will carry the burden, the other will relieve it.
It’s pretty simple to understand, yet hard to live. Jesus asks me to live what He lived. Rely on the Father alone. Don’t look to myself. Don't try to figure it all out.
In those moments of blindness my need for dependence is great. I cannot see. I have no choice. I must be led. Need invites dependence. Dependence leads to life.
He's familiar with all my ways. Every detail is cared for by the One who ordained my life. It's was the path of Jesus. It's the path He wants for me. Self-reliance will kill me, while dependence will bring me life. Jesus knew this. He chose the path of life. It is there I will find Him. It's where He walked. It's where He now waits to walk with me.
Laying aside the world's entanglements I choose to stand in my blindness and wait. I know He is there. I feel His touch. I hear His voice. Rest permeates my body as I lean into Him knowing; He’s been waiting for me. He's got me covered.
What about you? Is your immediate response to turn to Him or to try to figure it out? Is dependence more familiar to you or self-reliance?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge (look to) Him and He will direct your paths. Proverbs 3: 5 & 6
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